How great... ...Thank you
Friday, 30 April 2010 12:28 am
I saw this on Yi Jia's blog and I can't help it. I HAVE TO POST IT TOO!
My keeties are MAD SWEET can? Oh my cheeeecken! I'm tearing already...
So I had to go for this thing somewhere and Mao was supposed to come along. Then, they told me that our group really had to chiong I.T. and can't go. Which was true. But they were very persistent that Mao should not go and I was feeling kind of left out. Then they went to find a teacher without me and deep down, I was feeling quite annoyed. They were abandoning me. Or so I thought.
I went up to them and asked: "So, how did it go?"
They looked up at me and went:
Miaow: heh... we're going to...
Mao: ... make your present today. Yeah, so I can't go.
Then I didn't know what to think. On one hand, I had to go alone but on the other, they're doing something for me then on the other OTHER hand, they sort of abandoned me and didn't talk to me. However on one foot, they wanted to give me a surprise. Which I really REALLY LOVE. :D Not knowing what to do... I cried. I tried to change topic by looking for stuff on Jo's table to talk about but I choked after one comment. Guinea Pig just went "Aww.. Meechiao" and thingys like that. :/
Finding no point letting them stare at me, I went to pack my bag and act busy. Was saved by the bell and went off.
The next day...
THEY GAVE ME AN APOLOGY CARD! AWW... T^T
There are loads of people chionging homework now. Betcha' no one will be energetic tml. :/
anyway, bye!
Now you've got me crying...
Monday, 19 April 2010 11:49 pm
I've just spent around 50min writing out the 2 BIGGEST things that have been bugging me a lot lately. Both of them started when I came into secondary school. WHY.!? Now, all I can do is stare at the pencil scribble which filled a page of my notebook and wonder if they will ever go away. WHY do I even pretend to be so excited in school when all I do will never amount to anything? Other people have SO much more potential. I'm not important. I never was. Burden to the people around me. Never does anything right. Why am I still alive? I should just die now and everyone would be happier. If people are going "aww..." right now. I know it's just pretend. EVERYTHING I KNOW IS JUST PRETENCE. F-A-K-E. All those smiles I see. They're actually just hiding something. They don't actually care! They just want to get what they want and leave me alone. No one cares. So why should I care? Just so I can see myself fall again? Just so people can laugh at me? Just imagine... If I had no friends and just sat alone in a corner all the time. Everone else's lives would be SO MUCH BETTER! They have one less person to care about. LESS STRESS!!! Who wouldn't want that!? If my brother was an only child, my parents would have never needed to spend money on me. They wouldn't have to move house. My brother would have a huge room to himself and the other room would be for study. He would be pampered. Living the easy life. Doesn't it all sound so nice now? All these will only happen when I'm gone. No more me in this world. I wouldn't make any difference anyway. People always ask "What do you want to be when you grow up?" "What do you want to achieve in life?"... I always have nothing to say. I HAVE NO TALENTS. Even if I ended up on the streets, it would shun me too. I'm good for nothing. I shouldn't be able to see as all I ever do is stone. I shouldn't be able to smell as I don't notice smells. I shouldn't be able to talk as all I ever say is nonsense. I shouldn't be able to touch 'cause I'd break it. I shouldn't be able to hear as I dont actually LISTEN. So why am I still here? To entertain? What person will have fun watching me fail? Wait, I'm giving myself too much attention. NO ONE CARES.
i can feel the pressure. It's getting closer now.
Tuesday, 13 April 2010 10:28 pm
I think you've always been, so you should just erase that mindset, alright?
OOOOOOOOOOOH! I'm so slow with updating. Ugh, it's like just Tuesday and I feel that time is flying too fast. Usually, I'll be like It's only Tuesday!? When will the week end!? I think I feel this way now is because I've got things on like after school, EVERYDAY.
The other thing I want to say is that. Public performance was so, super awesome! :D WHEEEEEEE! Although I did not perform, I had fun doing duty. I sound like I'm falling sick or something. Work can actually be fun! Jasmine is so funny! After everything, went to holding room and met Isabel and Claire. Apparently, they missed the bus. :O Poor souls. Every performing group were like cheering and stuff like that. We were sitting together and decided to scream just for the sake of it. Maybe they'd keep quiet or something. The three of us screamed. Nothing happened, I guess. :[ Aww... but if something were to happen, we'd be super paiseh too. :] So, it's a good thing? :]
Okay, Chinese oral is tomorrow. How exciting... *sigh* Can't help it. You can't study for this type of tests. I'm like mad high now and I feel that I can't type fast enough! RAHHHHHH!
THIS FRIDAY. It's here. It's creeping. It's crawling. Like a creepy spider. *SQUISH* Eww... I hate spiders!
Heh, I really hope that the class will rise to the occassion and be more ENTHUSIASTIC. :] Nevermind that. I have complete trust in all of you people. I don't say all these stuff during P.E. becuase, we've got no time to waste. THANK YOU 2D! Let's win this. [:
Okay, I really have no sense of direction! SOMEONE HELP! KEETY? Goose? Juniors? (o.o that would be a little desperate.) Heh, kidding.
AHHH! I like having juniors! Younger schoolmates who know you and call you SENIOR! How EXCITING! HAH!
Okay, I should go back to researching for Home Econs. [:
Goodnight and Goodbye people from Earth and beyond. :D
i never knew i could feel that much...
Friday, 9 April 2010 3:14 pm
umm. It's lyrics to a song. Don't get me wrong. [: 不要想太多.
Finally, the only day that I went home after school. I feel super slackish at home. :[ Like, I wanna do homework but, blah, don't care at the same time. o.o Or is it just boredom? Oh well. I have something to look forward to. So I don't mind. [:
WHOO! Public performance is tomorrow! Can someone record the performances for me? I WANNA SEE! :D I can't believe the school actually sold out like, a thousand over seats! How many people are there in the school anyway? Must record! Especially ELDDS' performance. 'Cause I have not seen it yet. :X Oh whatheheck, just record everything! :D I don't wanna miss a thing!
Hah, The Clap 8!*clap-clap-clap-clap-clap-clap-clap-clap!* HAH HAH HAH! So super fun! It's a band created during recess. We were randomly clapping to "We will rock you" and each of us like clapped differently. When we did it on purpose, we sounded great! :D WHOOOOOO! I don't have the video, though.
It has been raining for a long time. My dogs have been asleep for the whole afternoon. Oh goodness! It's only 4.30!? Wow, I thought it was, around 6+! Oh well.
I'm tired and sleepy shall nap now. :b
Can't blame me that I'm deprived from sleep.